happy new year!
Thinking about the past few years, I realize that New Year's Eve is one of the times when I'm most confronted with the fact that I'm a pessimist. I suppose people who know me already know that about me. But somehow, the passing of another year makes me even more melancholic. Despite having been surrounded tonight by some really great people--and also having met some great new people--New Year's Eve mostly makes me think more about what hasn't been accomplished in the last year than about the exciting things that the new year may hold. Really, what I usually want for New Year's Eve is to be alone, a chance to be introspective and still--quiet enough to actually feel the weight (both positive and negative) of the previous year, the way that the day-to-day gravity of life has shaped me into something different, the way that the simple force of being alive has pulled me in new directions. I think I wish for a clearer reckoning --a settling of the bills, an ...